I am married and have been married for 5 years. My husband D is finishing his last year of law school this semester! YAAAAAAAAAAAAY! (I am so done!) Who knew Law School could be this stressful for ME as well?
We have a super mega cute (looks just like me) total-high-energy-can't-keep-up-with-him-if-I-try 3 year old! His online name is Zorro. He's a little daredevil. This boy gives me a run for my money!
As far as my weight loss journey, I have been struggling with weight issues most of my life. In highschool I battled with depression for the first time in my life and when that began my weight shot up even worse than it had ever been. By the time I graduated I weighed about 220 lbs.
At age 20, while I still struggled with depression, something changed inside and I was ready to make big changes. I began jogging then and made healthy changes in my eating. I dropped weight and became fit and healthy for the first time in my life. I never thought I would EVER, EVER go back.
me at my lowest
After I got married at gained some weight then lost again but then when I got pregnant, gained over 80 lbs. It was a hard pregnancy for me and I didn't care at all what I ate. After I had Zorro I dropped about 20 lbs. Just basically the baby weight and fluids but nothing else. The fat remained.
At first I battled the weight but depression unlike I had ever, EVER experienced had set in. It was so debilitating that I often could not even get out of bed, not even to take care of my baby or if I could it was the bare minimum. I couldn't move, leave the house, talk to anyone, nothing. I gained and gained and gained.
In the midst of this time I lost a dear friend. He was 24. He sacrificed his life to save another. Then shortly after that I was told I might have a brain tumor. My mortality weighed heavily on me but instead of making changes, I sunk deeper. I lost my footing completely. And I realized that I had lost myself. I didn't know who I was anymore. Physically, emotionally and spiritually I was only a shell of who I was.
I don't know what changed. But in a snap I knew I had to take my life back. 2 years after this depression started almost to the day, and on my 28th birthday (August 15th) I decided to take my life back. This is how it started:
I committed to that and lost 50 lbs from then to now and began the journey of taking my life back. Becoming myself again, but a new me too.
XO,
Kristi
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